Let me begin by saying(so no one out there thinks I don't love Robert) that I DO really love my husband. Now...I feel like getting a hold of an atomic bomb and trashing that Mt. Hood! If it wouldn't kill people and make a big fat mess of the Earth I would consider it, seriously:) Next thought " Chop saw ALL of our snowboards so no one can use them...ya ya that's the ticket! Really...I am a snow WIDOW, truly. This has been a very trying season for me and I think I have been MORE than patient about this adventure...really MORE THAN PATIENT! Out of every single on of my female associates and family members not a single one of them would"PUT UP WITH" their husbands being gone 2-3 full days every week to go "Play" on the mountain. Yes..it is true Robert takes the kids on Saturdays with him, but the fact remains he does NOT have enough time in his busy " I have to snowboard on Wednesday too" week to fix our cars( the new Honda needed to have that bearing replaced but could have easily driven until a weekend when Robert could have fixed it then so as not to , yet again, disrupt my life!) He has TOO much going on and I believe he will not get it all done for another year or so. I don't have a working lawn mower and the time is soon when I will NEED that bugger( what women do you know that do ALL the lawn care and yard work themselves?HMMM? ) We have TOTAL NOW 9 vehicles and only 2 work properly( when the Honda is done being fixed)! I drove the truck with a broken Transmission (top speed 45 MPH) a total of 65 miles today( fortunately it didn't break down): Drop kids off, get fuel, stop at bank and library, get to Boot camp class, stop at Fred Meyer..go home and pretty soon another few(about 30) miles to pick the kids up, take Jaydn to do Mole traps, Kole to Basketball practice and Leavi and Jaydn to Mutual. You see, it is simple I DO NOT HAVE THE KIND OF LIFE WHERE WE CAN AFFORD TO HAVE CARS OUT OF COMMISSION FOR DAYS/WEEKS ON END! Robert says" Danelle even people with new cars have to take them in and get them fixed so they are out of a car too when that is the case." RIGHT for a day or 2....:) Then..." Danelle you are welcome to do the repairs yourself, if I can figure it out then you can."
I KNOW I am blowing steam here...feels GREAT!( I am on a workout HIGH here...bare with me)
Forgive me for Whining, complaining and just spouting my misery! Here is the good part...are you ready for it...YES now I am going to list some things I need to be grateful for so I can let them simmer all day, it really is the only way I can get through this sort of CRAZINESS!
1. I have food to feed myself and my family!
2. I have lost 45 pounds thus far(down to 205 today!)
3. I am very healthy and so is my family!
4. I live in the country( a;ways has been my dream to be away from the bustle of city life and neighborhoods)
5.I have many talents that the Lord has seen fit to bless me with and I try my best to magnify and use them!
6. My kids are the BEST!
7. I have wonderful family and friends!
8. I live in a free country with tons of opportunity!
9. I am free to express my religious convictions and worship how, when and where I please!
10. I am a daughter of God, and He loves me!
I am exceptionally grateful for these and many other blessings! ( I think my blood pressure just dropped just from listing things to be grateful for!) This Gratitude awareness I have been plugging along with has been tremendous in helping me with my daily struggles and I am grateful God revealed to me, personally, that this would show me a better way for myself! I do NOT feel depression any more, while I am overwhelmed much of the time I see God's hand in my life carrying me along the way, even when it seems too much to bare. God has lead me to many changes in my life that have cleared my mind of the garbage and freed my spirit from oppression and bondage( most self inflicted).
MY LIFE IS GOOD and every now and then it is healing to get out the YUCK! FRUSTRATION and ATTITUDE!
Do I feel better you ask?
YES! Thank you Heavenly Father for this trial( always be grateful for your trails they help you grow) Come What May and LOVE IT! My sister-in-law has this on a plaque in her home and I just think those are words to live by...every single day of your life! I would not have felt that way 6 months ago, for sure...so
ON with LIFE!
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4 comments:
That's right. Come what may and love it.
Ok so let me tell you that I do have a working vehicle. I am grateful for that. But........ I am the only one willing to do any yard work. It is all up to me. I would love his help but I guess....... I would rather he spend time with the kids.
Your not alone on the yardwork thing!!!!!! Yet you are the only one married to our brother Robert. Im sooo sorry. Just kidding I know he is a great guy most of the time.
okay, so how about you tell your loving husband that you are going to take the car in to be fixed in 2 weeks if he doesn't have it done. Where will the money come from? He'll have to figure it out, after the fact:) It's just a thought:) goodnight.
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